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| what if someone you never met, someone you never saw, someone you never knew, was the only someone for you.......sleepless in seattle....i just love that movie...i could just go on and on watching the movie.... again and again....and it always gives me this little magic feeling bout being so special to be in love....its wonderful...the movie...love..everything....i guess i just love the feeling after watching it....sometimes i wonder if fate really gives a sign if its the right one...maybe....i dont know....people say..you'll know it when the time comes....i hope this time....things will be right throughout the beginning until the end..... | | |
| gosh.. i cant believe i woke up at 4.45am and suprisingly still awake now at 6am. the sun was up since then...and its just so hard for me to sleep. yawning. i guess by writing something would somehow put me to sleep again. i hope its gonna be really sunny later coz it makes me feel more comfortable not feeling cold. cant wait for tomorrow when everbody is up...atleast wont feel pathetic like now...being awake when everyone else is asleep... i just dont know what to write..... my mind is blank. should i go for a jog? that would be really cool.. but it will be boring doing things without riz. he is soooo sweet... ....once he is done with his presentation today, yeay...we will be free from work loads!hmm...my room looks plain now...partly because my stuff are packed into boxes....its the 4th of june today..i just cant wait to be home, 12 days to go... hmmm..its nice being here..but nothing is comparable to being at home in my room....knowing that i dont have to move out during anytime of the year..everything is fixed... i just love the way it is at home....im gonna watch dvd now...this is not helping. | | |
| have you ever felt horrible when your favourite songs remind you of your bad moments? i had a great today but somehow when i came back, listening to 'those' songs at the moment just ruins my day. but how can i run away from my favourite songs just because it reminds me on the tragedy...the things that i never wanted to recall... it hunts me especially when i listen to those songs... maybe i shouldnt be bothered bout it anymore...im not..but is just that its very disturbing when my brain just reflects on those moments when i listen to those songs..not that i listen to the songs with an intention of recalling those time...but i dont know...it just comes along when its randomly played.....i hate to know that i hate those memories, the things mentioned and believed, i hate his name, the sight of his shadow....everything bout this mr senapang gajah. im glad i moved on... as in...i dont long for him anymore...i just plain hate him... i wish i am not able to recall that i hate him.....well...i know clearly that i hate him...but the anger in me is still burning the fact that he was the biggest liar in my life...no closure... i guess he is borned with a heart of an animal...i wish he was dead...even if he is alive...i wish he was paralyzed..... he is my biggest mistake, my biggest regret.... its quite dramatic to pour my anger in this way, but atleast i feel better after listening to my favourite songs now... people say that if one still hates mean he or she still cares but i dont agree with that...not for me. i never cared since then.... | | |
| finally....im done with my submissions, assignments and presentation...feuuhh...it was soo tiring working in an endless boundary of time for the past 3 weeks...now that everything is over...im totally jobless.. ive already started packing eventhough im only three weeks away from home..packing stuff into boxes...i came across many pictures that reminded me on so many things, happy times, sad moments, unforgettable nostalgias..crazy friends and i guess..everything.. also...i read pieces of my thoughts and then wondered bout the things that had happened before...the combination of those somehow makes me feel totally lost...i dont know why . | | |
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